The good: I passed my piano exam. Done with Grade 8.

The bad: I'm completely lost now. Torn. As always.

I guess I have been living in denial for a long time. Now that I'm at a crossroad, it is perhaps time to face the music. Literally.

I need a new direction. A new high.

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Plan A: Continue with piano diploma. I have 2 teachers in mind now.

Plan B: Finish Grade 8 theory by this Nov with my current teacher. Meaning 6 months without practical. I can't afford the time to do both.

Plan C: Stop piano and focus on cello. But I can't bear to... Although that is very much a 'practical' thing to do since I perform on it more than the piano.

Plan D: Something about work... Something about school. Some thing of a deep desire of which I am too big a coward to realise it.

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It seems like I have a lot to think about. A lot of people to talk to.

And so I shall continue to live in denial now and think about it over my 16 days out of Singapore next month.